Prognosis

So, for those of you who have actually met me, you'll know that I'm a veritable Adonis. Ok, maybe not, but physically, thank God, I've been lucky to be in reasonably good shape. Which makes the mental collapse that I'm going through all the more fascinating. I mean, I'm just going through a total emotional unravelling, like my mental faculties are rebelling against me. Not to be dramatic (or belittle real illnesses) but it does remind me of the way cancer patients describe a breakdown in their own bodily functions. It's humbling and depressing and reminds you of your place in the world.

So, I'm not feeling any better. Here are my symptoms:

-Strong heart palpitations.
-Vomited twice today.
-Tightness of chest, shortness of breath and muscle ache.
-Uncontrollable trembling, "dry" sobbing.
-Nightmares and restless sleep.

I'm also very tired but I doubt I'll be abe to get any sleep. I know this will go away but not knowing when is the real annoyance. It's kind of like the flu: you don't know when it's going to break but you know it won't kill you either.

Unless it's bird flu, of course.