I have wait issues

People's automatic rebuttal to your assertion that you're "sick of waiting for things to happen in life" is to tell you to go out and make something happen for yourself. This rebuttal is so instinctive that people can barely wait for you to finish your sentence so they can jump in. I sincerely believe it's a reflex that originates in the spinal cord, not the brain. It has to be, I mean, it's a very stupid rebuttal on so many different levels.

First, let me be clear. Some people don't do anything and then complain about it when nothing happens for them. I'm simply not one of those people. Not by a longshot. I've spent time with those people and they really don't do ANYTHING.

First of all, I do stuff. I like to read, I go to my job 6 days a week and work approximately 45-50 hours a week. Occasionally, I go out for a drink after work, catch a movie, jog, play Xbox, meet up with people and the like. But that stuff doesn't make the waiting shorter. In fact, the waiting occurs around all these activities. My problem is that day-to-day life just lacks that spark that I need, something inspiring to make me want to face it on a daily basis. It's tedious and repetitive and waiting seems to be the point of the whole damn thing.

Secondly, if you're working towards something, like a vacation or a move to another country, the waiting happens regardless of how you fill your time. Filling your present with distractions isn't likely to make time move quicker.

Thirdly, how do you know that I'm not just hyper-sensitive to the passage of time? I am, you know. I'm obsessive about knowing what time it is and measuring the passage of time vs. my perception of the passage of time. This is my nature and I can't help it. Also, as a no-joke insomniac, I know the teeth-gnashing frustration that waiting for HOURS to do something as simple (so simple that total morons do it everyday) can bring. It's a state where your mind wonders if it's worth being in business at all, if all you've been doing between 1am and 5am is staring into total darkness (with intermittent breaks to go to the bathroom, pace around the house or pound the pillow in sheer frustration). Waiting is no joke.

Which is why I'm done waiting. Call it my April resolution but I refuse to wait for anything anymore. If things don't catch up with me, I will simply leave them behind. That includes people, money and my stupid citizenship.

You see, if you wait for people, you're really waiting ON them. And people start taking that shit for granted.